What a day and I mean nothing pleasing about it. I am so mentally exhausted I can barely hold on to the 1/2 ounce of sanity I have left. Being a parent of a special needs child is more challenging than I ever imagined. When I hear people tell me I’m a great parent or my child is lucky to have me, I sometimes just want to slap somebody and shout, “what is the matter with you; stop saying that!” I am a human being and I fall on my face constantly. My nerves are frazzled 95% of the time and I’m constantly exhausted mentally. I think often of that saying, “God will never give you more than you can handle.” I’m sorry, but that’s just total crap. I’ve been beyond “more than I can handle for the last 5 years and there is no “handling” ANYWHERE in my or my wife’s future. Often, our lives are simply pure hell.
I write these post snip its for Our Lady and I beg for her intercession. If you happen to come across this post today or next week or two years from now, please pray for me, my wife and our son. Believe me, we need the prayers now and we’ll need them tomorrow. I mostly take solace in the words of Mary Anne Radmacher, “Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, ‘I will try again tomorrow.”
God Love You,